Here's To Change...Oh And To You, Mark.

Change is everywhere. Everything and everyone is constantly evolving. Improving, reshaping, figuring out what works and what doesn't. And I of all people should know this; a lot hasn't been working recently.

We don't need to get into all the specifics about the problematic changes occurring in my life because that would just put us all in a bad mood, and frankly there's too much to talk about, so we'll focus on two items and try to leave most of the negativity out of the equation. Cause change can be good, right?

What's interesting to note is what hasn't changed. That often helps myself adjust and accept the things in my life that are changing. As long as I have several factors that remain the same, I'm less likely to go insane from it all. But Mark didn't want to hear about the portions of my life that are the same as they used to be, no. He wanted to hear about the differences. And so that's what we'll talk about.

Everything Has Changed, But These Are The Changes That Stand Out The Most

1. The place I sleep has changed from a double to a twin XL to a double again.

My bed at home is one of the softest doubles you'll ever meet. It is my everything, let me tell you. A good night's sleep can solve the worlds problems, and I will say, I do miss my bed quite a lot. Well, I did miss my bed after switching to a twin (much to my surprise) after moving into the loft of my new dorm room. The lofts are meant to come with a double, but mine decided that it needed some change in it's life as well, so twin XL it was. 

So how, you may ask, did I end up back in a double? Well, my friends (and Mark), I'll tell you. 

By some amazing, spectacular, spontaneous, stressful, but perfect stroke of magic stirred up by the universe, I ended up being the one to move out in the situation of a temporary triple. And I needed that pass, I just didn't realize it initially. But like I said, we weren't going to discuss the negative aspects of change, we're only going to focus on the positives. And upgrading back to a heavenly double is definitely a positive. 

You don't realize how much bed there really is to a double until you spend 4 weeks sleeping in a twin. 

The beautiful discoveries like that one that accompany change are often the best parts of it all. 

1. (<-This should really be a 2.) I am creatively thinking 24/7

There is a popular controversial musical existing in the universe at the moment (who would have thought) titled The Book of Mormon. Let's just say I've seen it twice...

Besides the point, there is a song in it called 'Turn it Off' that speaks about eliminating the feelings one has that they don't want to feel. They, "turn it off, like a light switch. Just go click!" This is how my brain used to have to view creativity. 

I went to a public high school and therefor only had one AP art class in which I attended 4 out of the 5 days in a week to work on self directed projects that were occasionally critiqued by my fabulous art teacher and mentor, Chad Manders. The class that I loved the most often had to be put second to core classes (aka, mainly just AP Calculus) that occupied the majority of my time outside of school. In order to focus on attempting to understand the rigorous material that comes with AP Calc, I had to switch my brain off of it's creative mode and into it's logical, arithmetic, numbers mode. I'm not a fan of that mode. And one could argue that Calculous requires just as much "creative thinking" as creating art does, but I don't agree that it requires the same form of creativity in the least bit. 

At SAIC, a private art college, every class relates in some way back to the creative process that art is encompassed in. There's no escaping how anything taught in any class (including English) subconsciously, if not just straight up consciously, relates back to my own artistic practice. I'm constantly thinking about reshaping concepts, developing new ideas, and forming my perception of this great big world and I don't have to ever put any of that on hold for a problem that results in one answer and has no relation to the rest of my life. 

That is by far, one of the best changes that has occurred.  

I want to talk about change more, I really do. But as I mentioned before, several things in my life have remained the same in order to preserve my sanity. One of those things ironically doesn't preserve my sanity, but it sure isn't going away any time soon. That is procrastination. So here I am, signing off at 2:21AM on Monday September 26th. One can only hope that a major change is right around the corner. And hopefully behind that corner lives some time management skills. But for now, goodnight. See you in class.

-Belle xx

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