Living Life Without a Plan B

Hey guys. Today I want to write about a topic that scares the hell out of me. The future. 

*screams are heard in the distance, buildings explode, and the universe collapses in on itself*

But really, it's a terrifying topic. Unless you've already got a set road map all laid in front of you that you've been sketching for years, I'm sure this then is a common feeling among us. I can barely decide what I want to eat for dinner let alone decide what classes I want to take eight months in advance. And not only that, but classes that are chosen based of off what I'm considering of pursuing in the future. IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE FUTURE. I don't know what exactly I want to do with my life yet, and why should I have to decide this instant? I do have some clue as to what I want to pursue though, and that is happiness. 

I don't want to be the kind person working for a salary. Someone who goes to a 9 to 5 (maybe even longer) job where I sit at a desk on a computer all day doing who knows what only to go back to my average suburban house and repeat the same maddening process daily. I've already wasted roughly twelve years of my life doing that already, I don't want to go out doing the same. I used to like the daily routine, maybe even enjoy it. I used to like knowing what I was getting into each and every day with a set schedule to follow. Now I absolutely hate it. I want spontaneity and a new exciting adventure each and every day. I want to learn some days and create others and explore the world around me the days in between. I want to be excited about life everyday. Not just the weekends, holidays, and summers. 

By now you all know that my passion is art. My mind is constantly developing ideas, seeing the world from a different perspective, needing to put what I cannot say through words onto paper. It's just how I tick. Being confined from being able to keep my mind on it's 'art' mode all the time isn't enjoyable. It's who I am, and I need to pursue this passion. I've recently become obsessed with Twenty One Pilots (no lie, I've listened to Vessel roughly 30 times this past month). The band is made up of two guys, Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun. You can tell they have such a devotion to their music and making sure their lyrics not only mean the world to them, but to their fans as well. Any experience you could imagine is captured within their songs; it's pretty magical to be honest. One day, I saw a little vine clip from an interview of theirs and Tyler was describing how he met Josh. He said, "Then I met Josh, a kid with no Plan B. He lived and breathed Plan A: Music." It just really struck me that once you find that thing that makes you tick, that thing that keeps you going, that thing that gets you up in the morning, you have to hold onto it and never let it go. Why should I have a backup plan when I want to devote myself to the thing I love most in this world? If you really have a passion for something, you will make it become a reality no matter how hard of a challenge you're faced with. If you are able to pursue your passion, you will never have to work a day in your life. I'll find a way to make it work and I'll find a way to financially support myself, I just don't want to wake up one day hating my life because let me remind you, we only get one. 

Find your passion and run with it. 

-Belle xx

P.S: Speaking of which, this is how I'm currently working on pursuing my passion. I'm very proud of this piece myself (Which doesn't happen all the time. You win some you loose some)

OH and song suggestion of the week? New thing? Since I was speaking of Twenty One Pilots, I figured I should mention one song for you to now go on and listen to. You should listen to the entire Vessel album, because I cannot choose a favorite, but one that really stuck with me today was Trees. 

Je Suis Charlie

I wanted to put in a word or two of mine in about the event that took place in Paris last Wednesday.

The violence that took place is inexcusable, and no, I'm not putting a blame for what was done on the religion of Islam at all. I recognize that there is a clear split between those apart of the religion that believe this sort of action is not apart of the Islamic values and detest that there is a portion of believers that practice it and ones that believe it to be right and just. 

But I didn't want to talk too much about this messy part of the issue. I want to speak of the outcome.  

It's incredible to see the global aftermath of the tragedy that occurred, with people from all different backgrounds coming together to support the freedom of speech and expression of France and the arts combined. It's a movement of peaceful ways with pencils raised and the brilliant thought that one pencil broken can be turned into two. The reaction that occurred gives me the hope that for every bad person there is in this world, there are thousands of others that are just the opposite who are willing to fight for others freedoms and people who can recognize that just because the event didn't happen anywhere close to them, it can hit just as close to home as someone in Paris who personally knew the victims.

I could wish all day for killings all over the world to come to a halt and that we would all view each other as equal and love and cherish everyone for who they are, but I know that this won't happen. I could wish that people would recognize that others are going to have differing opinions on subjects regarding the world and life to come and that that's okay because their views cannot alter yours as long as you don't allow them to, but I know that this won't happen. 

What I do know is that from what I've seen come out of this event, we have the ability to unite a great majority of the world based on some basic set of human values, whatever those may be. I know that out in the universe, others share these views of mine and want to do something about it, but can't as one small person. That's exactly why it's important to stand up and unite with those around you to see the change you want to be made, preferably in a peaceful way. And I know that others in this universe aren't going to agree with these views I share with you today, and that's okay. Whatever you believe, I hope you recognize that reacting with violence to a situation only makes the outcome ten times worse. Words are a powerful weapon in the process of achieving peace, which is why it's really cool to see "Je Suis Charlie" circling the Internet. 

As much as I'd like to keep wishing, I'm afraid the world is running scarcely low on magic. 

My thoughts go out to the loved ones of the victims involved in the Paris shooting. The world has lost several more creative sparks.

-Belle xx